i think that if there is anything that life/high school thus far has taught me, it’s this—never put someone up on a pedestal. throughout my life, i have always subconsciously viewed a few some people as perfect and i set them on a pedestal and strove in every aspect to achieve their “perfection”. every single time i attempted, i eventually saw their flaws and then i failed. this just continued to be this cycle of making this human that i hardly knew as my own personal celebrity and i tried so hard to be like them. it never failed to disappoint me. i think this is where many people my age start to lose their self confidence. it may not be the only factor, but it is a determining factor. i think setting someone up and viewing them as this ultimate perfection is one of the many causes for self hatred in this world, i truly do. instead of finding our own individuality and embracing our flaws, we focus on them and try to steal the ideas from someone else who probably stole their ideas from someone else as well. all i know is, when we put someone up on to this pedestal, not only is it unfair to ourselves but it is also unfair to that person as well. remember that no one is perfect. if you view someone’s life as a life that you want to live and dwell on your own, probably.. someone somewhere out there is looking at you the same way. embrace and love yourself. surround yourself by things that you love. because in your own way, that is perfect enough.